Overcoming my fear of saying no

October 1, 2019

 

A few months ago, Mitch and I took a two-week-long vacation. During our trip, God kept revealing one thing to me over and over again: it’s time to let go and trust me! I didn’t take this very seriously until I got back home and started to ask God what He wanted me to let go of. His answer was clear:  my clients.

 

I always knew that it would be only a matter of time until I had to have this conversation with God. Deep inside I knew something had to change.

As Shanna Skidmore said, “Never get to busy making a living, that you forget to make a life.”

 

I realized at this moment that it was time to make some really HARD decisions.

I realized that it was time to actually sit down and have dinner with my husband instead of working through my meals to finish client projects.

I realized that it was time to get a full night’s sleep instead of staying up late to fix whatever needs to be fixed.

 

MOST IMPORTANTLY, I REALIZED THAT IT WAS TIME TO TRUST GOD AND OVERCOME MY FEAR OF SAYING NO.

 

Back in June, I was in complete burnout mode. I was saying yes to everything and anything that came my way. I had great opportunities and awesome clients, but little time to serve them well. And I haven’t even mentioned the other non-business related responsibilities I had on the go…it was hard. Really hard.

 

At the same time, letting go of some of my clients and projects was one of the most challenging things I’ve had to do with my business. I mean…these clients were amazing! I honestly love and respect everything they do, but letting them go made me realize how blessed I am and how faithful God is. He’s given me the best people to work with. 

 

Needless to say, it was sad to have to end things with some of my clients, but I am so grateful that my friendships with them have continued. They have prayed for me and sent me off in a way that I never imagined possible. 

 

I TEARED UP HAVING TO SEND MY GOODBYE EMAILS, BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, GOD IS STILL GOOD. 

 

Although it was challenging to deal with this over the last couple of months, I am thankful for the downtime I have since had in which I’ve been able to prayerfully decide what to do with my business –  To say I am excited is an understatement!

 

While you won’t see many crazy changes around here (my vision and mission are still the same), I’ve been sensing that God wants me to speak to the women I serve in a more tangible way. I am still in the process of figuring out exactly how to achieve that, but I have a feeling that writing is going to be a major part of it. Perhaps this will mean more blog posts and resources related to faith and balance. Regardless, I’ll keep you posted!

 

Writing this post has affirmed for me that good things can happen even when the circumstances tell you otherwise. I honestly feel so free after making the decision to trust God and overcome my fear of saying no because I know that God’s plan is way bigger than my own plan and that His goodness can overcome any discouragement that comes my way. God is definitely continuing to teach me more about him and about myself as I mature and wrestle with my do-it-all nature, and I’m embracing the journey! Thanks for coming alongside me and following along as I imperfectly figure things out one step at a time.

 

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